Life, life, life.

I know, I know, I haven't written a post in some time, but my blogging craving come in random spurts. I'm thinking about doing a daily blog, but if I know myself at all, I'm pretty sure I won't be able to keep it going. Anyways, I've been up to lots of things lately. CAPA audition went great, however I'm on the waiting list *bum*. SO, just waiting for the next letter to arrive. It's so sunny today! I woke up feeling so great, with the sun shining, just thanking God for sun. I continue to be amazed by his awesome creations everyday. So, recent life, recent life...hmmm where to start? Well...room update: NOT finished at all. It's kind of pissing me off a bit, because I mean, my parents said that for my birthday they would give me a new re-done room right, but I feel like now theres saying "well, heres the catch, you need to do it yourself, because were busy" well guess what? I'm busy too! I want my room back really bad but I feel like Im the only one working up there. My dad is a contractor, and he has showed me how to fix stuff, aka refinish furniature, fix walls, paint walls, put downs flooring etc, etc. But still, my room is HUGE. and I'm still spackeling adn trying to fix the cracks in the wall. Im working up there because I want my room back and nobody else is un-busy enough to help me! But lately ive been busy too, with school and trying to catch up and stuff. so, its tough. Life is tough in general, always has been for me. With problems with family, friends, balencing life and life issues is really hard. But, I try and keep my head up :).
it's weird, I mean a lot of people would have never guessed I have so much crap going on in my life, because at the same time, I have a lot of good stuff going on, and I always seem like I'm happy all the time! I guess I don't share those parts of my life with people that often because I'm afraid it will change their whole view of who I am. But those parts of my life make up who I am. Don't get me wrong, I'm not pretending to be happy. I am a happy person, despite some of the bad things that happen in my life. I just don't like to dwell on the fact that I DO have some crap going on. So, i keep my head up and stay happy. This is just...life as she knows it. And I'm okay with that.


ANyhow, I'm thinking about writing a 25 things about me *GASP* on here ;) so, here goes.

1. I can read people really well. Just by body language, speech, look...I feel like I can read you like a book. It's weird, but I can. I can understand people really well, and I love talking with people.

2. If I notice your the chill type I'll be completely chill around you as so not to freak you out with my exposive randomness. don't get me wrong, i love being chill too. I blend into whatever kind of atmosphere I am in. hang out with me a lot and I'll show you that explosive side :).

3.Sometimes I scare myself about how weird I am XD

4. I love brushing my teeth!

5. I feel liek I"m 40 billion people all at once. I can be quiet, ridiculously loud, crazy, serious, calm, extremely energetic, scarily insane, scarily sane, thoughtful, outgoing, shy, sad, happy,.....I've got like a different state of mind for every possible sitation :) but sometimes I'm like waaaayyy too crazy in really bad situations, like a funeral or something and I'll just burst out laughing. Or, I'm really quiet and chill at a time when I'm supposed to be crazy. :) Im such a weirdo!

6. I love sunshine so so much. SO much.

7. When i was five I started to take Ballet lessons, and I danced until I was 13. I was really gifted in dance and by age 11 was put into an advanced class with mostly 16/17 year-olds. But for some reason after 11 I became distracted with dance, and I just wasnt any good anymore. I dont know what went wrong, but I just...couldnt do it. my teachers were dissapointed with me, and my dream of being a dancer when I grew up just kind of faded away...soemtimes I still wish I could dance as well as I used to be able to. It's weird to think that that used to be my main priority in life, and it was what people thought when they saw me. It was always Zoe= dancer. I feel liek I still have the potential to dance with grace and passion like I used to , but something about putting together dance moves confused my head...I don't think I will ever be able to dance liek I used to ever again.

8. I have absolutely no idea what I want to do when I grow up. Or even for college for that matter. I want to do something in the arts. Saturday night live has been my favorite show for a long time, and I've been told that I'm really great with improvising. I love acting, but I dont get that many opportunities to act. I used to though. I took improv classes and it was fun! so i playa round with this dream of being on SNL one day. other than that, possibly a film maker/director/cinematographer...photographer, art therapist, be in a band....learn to play the guitar...and about a bajillion other ideas!

9. I LOVE to ride my bike. riding on sunny days is like bliss to me. In the summer, my bike is my main form of transportation. give me directions and I'll go anywhere on my bike. When I was 11 I biked 120 miles to my grandmothers house with my father and brother. It tooks two days and was a ton of work, but it was a fun trip.

10. I love the woods. I love being in the woods, the forest....nature....It's my absolute favorite place to be. Take me to a forest and your my hero.

11. my longest (and only hah) relationship lasted almost 8 months.

12. I've been to Anne Franks house in Amsterdam, Corrie ten booms house in Berliner, Mozart's house in Salzburg, the Church of the scouraged savior in Waidhofen (germany), the cologne cathederal (koln, germany) Bethiem castle (where I met the prince of benthiem), Neauschwanstein castle, mirabell gardens, and all over the summer, 2008. I got to sing in every single one of those places except for anne franks house, and mozarts house. It was the most incredible experience of my entire life. I will never ever forget how amazing it was.

13. I've been drawing since I could crawl.

14. I love God. Hes incredible.

15. If I could have any superpower, it would be to be able to transport myself into any time or place. If I could go anywhere, I would go to some time where humans didnt exist...or where time didnt exist (whis isnt real, but bear with me. were talkign about SUPERPOWERS here) to a beautiful forest or island, or jungle somewhere that didnt exist and sit and be there, and then be able to come back to my own time and home whenever I wanted, and I wouldnt have missed a thing.

16. I can't read music. I can read solfege, and I can sight read solfege once given a pitch. I don't know how to decifer key, or time signiature. I was never taught.

17. I've been told I have an incredible voice from my brother, who is the only person to ever hear me sing to my fullest extent. I hold back when I sing in public because I'm afraid of what people will think.

18. I love to write stories, but I never finish them. I write poetry every now and then as well.

19. Sidewalk chalk is so much fun. I make huge abstract murals on my front walkway in the summer. I love it.

20. My dad is an artist. He has his own website for his T shirt designs. hes also a woodworker, a contractor, and a dad.

21. My mom is an evangelist and tells people about God for a living. Shes so silly and lovable and I love her to death.

22. I have an older brother who is crazy as hell, but I wouldn't trade him for anything. SOmetimes I wish he would grow up and stop being an idiot, but I love him for who he is none the less. He is my brother, and I love him.

23. I always brush my teeth in the shower.

24. I LOVE my name. couldnt ask for a more awesome, perfect name for me. It means Life :)

25. I care so much about people. If you ever need to talk about anything, I am always here and I am always willing to help you. Nobody should ever have to be stuck alone with their problems. I know how it feels. That's why I love to help people. I care.

and there you have it!
veinty y cinco facts about mi!